Hello lazyweb
June 16th, 2008 Roshan
Hello World, I’ve been waiting for the chance to see your face.
There’s a jingle that starts that way, where have I heard it? It’s stuck in my head.
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Screwing up
June 8th, 2008 Roshan
It happens to the best of us, at the best of times, when things are looking good. A regular snafu. There’s nothing wrong with messing up, it happens all the time. What’s important is handling the aftermath, and easing back into your normal life. That sounds easy on paper all the time; but when your self-esteem rests completely on your estimation of the work you do, you live on the edge of a wet piece of paper.
It’s hard to remember all the times things went according to plan when you drop the ball in a team game. There’s failure staring you in the face, and you can’t tear your eyes away. Strangely, it’s not simply losing that bothers you, it’s letting your team down. And that snowballs.
Thanks Keith. I can analyse now.
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Exams
April 17th, 2008 Roshan
They’re nearly done. There comes a time in the history of a course when the brain of George, long suppressed, decides to find out just what it’s about. I had Astronomy today, and that’s when it happened. I felt this inexplicable urge to find out just what that paper was all about. Then I went to sleep.
Not really, that’s out of chronological order. I was sitting there, peacefully poking around the Kumaravelus’ book when it struck me: I had no clue what the whole thing was about. Today, I am free, I still don’t have a clue what the whole thing is about, and I’m unable to wrap my feeble mind around four new co-ordinate systems. But, with a few calls, and some clever rationing of time, I managed to learn exactly what came for the exam. Almost exactly.
Another day, another exam.
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I am returned
April 17th, 2008 Roshan
He is returned, quietly, to the land that he ruled. He sneaked right back into his throne. It is the throne that makes the king, not the man. A golden throne, coloured garishly in the style of those trying hard to get attention. Yeah, gold looks ugly. I said it. You all thought it but played along. I said it. You know, like the kid who said the emperor had no clothes. I’m like that kid. He is returned, and no longer a kid.
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He who was busy is no longer so, or so he thinks, for he is certainly not making an effort to do anything more than convert himself into a bumpy bed cover. Don’t ever ask for poetry when I’m sleepy, it won’t be in English. And it won’t be real. Not tangible atleast.
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If it hasn’t struck you that the above is absolute gibberish, I’ll follow it up with some brilliance. I have this plan to build a giant city called Psychotropia. Inside will be all sorts of sweat shops of sizes and colours unimaginable. Think of it as that carnival where you send drug abusers to work when they unwittingly walk in. You know, that carnival. Ha ha ha. Ha ha. Yeah.
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Visiting the sins of the forefathers upon the children
March 28th, 2008 Roshan
So that’s why life sucks. Why I can’t manage to enjoy myself, why I’m worthless, and have no reason to exist. Nothing’s gone right this week, and it’s twisting my insides to think of the messes I’ve gotten into. Why did I have to do what I did? Apologies all around, of course, I never meant to be so out of control, I thought I could do it, really. But I couldn’t. I can’t get anything right. Useless, that’s what I am.
Nah, you think I could write that self-flagellating drivel? I could’ve, and, as a matter of fact, I did. But I didn’t mean a word. I should’ve, considering I have the least attractive name a man can have. I kissed them and made them cry, didn’t I? Maybe that’s it. That’s why.
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Ouroboros Support
March 18th, 2008 Roshan
A funny feeling when you Google for something and find that someone else asked it before and you offered them a solution back in 2006. Have I forgotten more than I know? Anyway thank you Me, now I shall return to listening to Catfish Rising.
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It’s a proper noun
March 3rd, 2008 Roshan
Why yes it is, but that doesn’t mean you can have your way with my damn name. It’s not even a hard name, it’s an easy name, a nice name, it has but two syllables, and four if you count the second name. And yes, that second name is mine too. No, you can’t make the George a G., write my name “Roshan G.” and then call the G an initial. That’s not even fair to the damn G., you put it at the end of the name and you call it an initial. Call it a final if you wish.
Stop with this propa propaganda, a name’s a name, it isn’t just that set of letters there, it’s a sound, and mine is like that unheard melody you’ve all been told about, except it’s heard. Actually, you know what, I forgive you all. Really I do, because I don’t really care how you pronounce it, so long as you do. Because I love you all, you know. Deep down inside, I do.
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You see what you want
February 21st, 2008 Roshan
I saw this research paper on Slashdot that claimed that you see what you want to believe and the first thought that crossed my mind was Rashomon, a brilliant film by Akira Kurosawa that I really enjoyed back when I saw it. I didn’t know it was based on a short story, but it’s really interesting.
If you want to watch a couple of Kurosawa films and you don’t want to buy the DVD, you can rent them out from Cinema Paradiso or Ric Video. There are some real gems there.
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The Book Is Better
February 20th, 2008 Roshan
In any group of people discussing a film adapted from a book or theatre script, there will be at least one person who says that the book is better
. If no one will else will step up to claim that, I will call it George’s Law and I’ve never seen it fail. Not once. There are other, similar, laws of human behaviour which are so common that one wonders whether its something hard-wired in the language centres of our brains. Take people who solve Rubik’s cubes, I’m pretty certain that each such Rubik’s Cube solver has been told the following at least once: How do you do it?! You know, when I was a kid I just took the stickers off each side of the cube and stuck all the same colours on the same side.
Now, just in the interest of full disclosure, I did do that to a cube I had, and now half the stickers are missing because I didn’t stick them back on properly.
Why do people do stuff like that? You know, standard lines.
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I’m 20 now
February 3rd, 2008 Roshan
My birthday’s on the 28th of January every year - that’s funny, I was born only once. In any case, I’m 20 and I look back on those two decades and see no greatness. Why am I not yet a violin virtuoso? How come I haven’t yet got a billion dollars to spend? Ah, if only. In any case, things that I actually should have done include getting a voter ID card. But I have an explanation for that. When I turned 18 I was eligible to vote. However, the elections that year set the limit at 18 years old at Jan 1st. I was still seventeen years at the time. The whole thing is ridiculous because the elections weren’t even in January, or even in February. It’s not hard to set the limit at the date of the first polling day, it’s not like it adds any more to the checking process. I was pretty keen on getting a voter card at the time, and I should’ve anyway. I’m sure I could’ve got one. I wonder how one goes about getting one.
This year I graduate with a B.Sc. in Mathematics (unless my playing truant kills my attendance). I cannot honestly say I learnt much during these 3 years, I cannot even say that I deserve the degree if the amount I learnt during college is the criteria. There’s something wrong with the whole system when you have an Astronomy course but you aren’t allowed into the college post 10 PM. It’s funny, in a not-amusing way. However I do not regret joining MCC, of course. It’s just that the things you learn aren’t the things you get a degree for. Such is life.
I haven’t yet gotten around to cycling around, something that I’ve always wanted to do. I’m getting too old to hope to do it later, life catches up on youth too fast, and strangles it with responsibilities. Delayed gratification is something I always go for, but delayed too much and it may end up denied. I should get around to that post April, and before May, I hope. I’ve got my eye on this simple 10-speed bicycle, but in the end the problem’s always with the cyclist. I haven’t played a sport since I left school. Sedentary doesn’t even begin to describe the way I live. That has to change.
There was a paper I was supposed to do. It didn’t go so well the first time around, I was preoccupied with other things. Let me just finish this course and I’ll get right down to it. It can be done well, it should be, for the benefit of everyone involved. Fine, I botched it the first time around, my maths was shoddy for reasons even I cannot know, but something bad is only something that can be improved upon. A little effort, a little thought and a lot of getting back to the basics (I’m thinking I’ve forgotten my fundamentals)
I’ve always wondered why people make resolutions on New Year’s Day (Jan 1st). That’s about the worst time to make a resolution, you’re drunk, or stoned and you don’t know just what you’re thinking. It’s cold and dry, and your lips feel like death valley during the winter. There’s a whole year ahead of you, but it’s nothing much, it’s not your New Year’s Day, it’s a generic New Year’s Day. Your New Year’s Day is your birthday.
Oh, and thanks to everyone who came today, I appreciate it, it was nice. I like the fact that I got a big pink Aladdin puzzle. Anyone who couldn’t make it :) it happens, some other time. I’m not very good at organising things, I tend to forget stuff, and cannot remember to remind people. Fire and forget, not exactly efficient, but that’s all I can do.
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